Preview Film Here: Through My Tears
View Full Film Here: Through My Tears – A Letter to My Doctor
This film was born out of prayer for one abortion doctor’s conversion.
When we fight for LIFE, we fight for love – and love doesn’t leave anyone behind.
Through My Tears is based on an original letter written for an individual doctor combined with the authentic testimony of a woman who courageously shared her experience in hopes of directing others to healing in Christ and shining the light on the reality of abortion for so many.
(Update: Dr. Thomas James Gordon spent 50 years of his life in the heartbreaking work of abortion, aptly described by his former 2nd trimester abortion nurse (who has since found healing with ATTWN) as “pulling people apart”. It is impossible to measure the impact of this violence and trauma on both Dr. Gordon, his family, his staff, and the mothers, fathers, little ones, their families, friends, and communities wounded by abortion in his abortion facility day in and day out. Abortion was his work from the time that he was a 24 year old young man, until he recently passed away unexpectedly at the age of 74, on August 24th, 2023. On his very last day on earth, he showed up to work at the abortion facility, as was his routine, and continued on. My heart was shattered when I heard the news of his death. This wasn’t the ending I was praying for for Dr. Gordon. After reaching out to him directly for over 8 years, and all that transpired in that period of time, the miracles of the mothers who chose life, including the Ephesians 3:20-21 miracles, and more .. There were letters I still had in my heart to send to him. Stories I had hoped to share. Suddenly the door closed with such a finality, death came like a thief in the night. Our paths would never again cross here. There is a time appointed for each one of us to die. It was a bitter pill to swallow that Dr. Gordon would never experience freedom from the darkness of abortion here on the earth. Yet God in His sovereignty can be trusted. I pray that in Dr. Gordon’s final hours he had an encounter with Christ and turned to LIFE. Although it isn’t likely, humanly speaking, that this doctor changed his mind, we serve a God who works miracles. Nothing is impossible for God! I am filled with HOPE as I trust that God will continue to work to bring beauty and healing from this tragedy. Because of Christ’s finished work on the cross, the invitation to have change of heart and an eternal future of peace and forgiveness is available until our final breath. Salvation is the undeserved gift we all need. I will rest in God’s loving kindness. Please join my family in continued prayers for his widow and family.)
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A message from the producer:
Dear Friends,
I would like to briefly introduce myself to those who don’t know me. My name is Melissa Yeomans. I am a wife, a mother, a writer, an enthusiastic 40 Days for Life participant and a Sidewalk Advocate for Life.
Through a strange series of events, I have become a short film producer.
This journey began with a bookmark placed into my hands.
More than two decades ago, my grandmother volunteered as a counselor for the local Pregnancy Resource Center. It was at that time the leadership of the PRC felt called by God to ransom the building that the abortionist occupied and utilized as the largest surgical abortion facility in West Michigan. The bookmark my grandmother gave me had the doctor’s name on it along with a short prayer for his conversion.
“Please pray for the conversion of this doctor every day!” she requested.
That was the beginning of my unique and special prayer journey.
The dreams of the PRC leaders came to pass after 5 years of prayer and persistence, the building the abortionist occupied was indeed ransomed. (Part 2) You can find the story of this faith inspiring miracle in the pages of the book 40 Days for Life. Life International reaches the whole world from that same building at 72 Ransom in Grand Rapids, MI to this day.
But the doctor was not.
He moved a few blocks south and continued performing abortions. He spent 5 decades of his life terminating tiny hearts ( most likely believing, along with many others, that he is providing a necessary service to women.).
I continued to pray for him and contemplated writing him a letter, but what would I even say?
It was after I began participating in the 40 Days for Life outside his clinic and one brief exchange with him, that this letter came to me. Through my tears I wrote it, but it was hardly a letter to send an absolute stranger. It was a very difficult letter.
Instead, I began working to have it made into a film. I ran into one obstacle after the next with finding anyone willing to work on the film after the footage was shot.
After two years, I finally found an intern to edit the footage and it was almost done! Then a seasoned film producer and spiritual leader reviewed the film and gave me a wise word that I should consider rewriting the entire script from the perspective of the post abortive woman, not my own original letter. I prayed about this change in direction and received peace that it was the right thing to do.
A week before the suggestion I had had a surreal encounter in an aisle at Goodwill. A woman I had never met before spontaneously shared how she was brutally gang raped, chose abortion, was devastated by the loss of her child and she also shared with me the healing she found in Christ. We exchanged contact information after talking. In her, God had pre-supplied his choice of an authentic testimony for me to write from. With this woman’s consent and blessing, rewrite I did.
But that left me at square one again as far as editing the footage went.
Years were passing by. I kept waiting and praying with my eyes and ears open, asking for help from those I thought might be able. No one was able to help me. I know now it was for a reason. He wanted me to not just write a letter about his love, but prove my letter by living it.
God drew me to the sidewalk outside the clinic in prayer for this film to be brought to completion, and more importantly to invite the abortion doctor to turn away from death and choose life for himself. I was to be visible boots on the ground, not just a bleeding heart on the page. (God continued to call me to the sidewalk to minister to every soul there, equipped with training, tools and support, as a Sidewalk Advocate for Life.)
For my entire fifth pregnancy shy of the first eight weeks, I visited the clinic every business day to greet the workers and doctor with a smile and wave, praying for conversion and for the message God put on my heart to go forth. “Bless every soul that enters this clinic with your love that nourishes and sustains LIFE!” was my prayer.
After my baby (Noah) was born, we continued through the 40 Days campaigns, reaching out there every business day for five campaigns, and after as a faithful year round sidewalk presence adjusting my sidewalk scheduling as I was able. The result is a real life backstory story all its own, demonstrating God’s heart for this doctor personally. It is God’s kindness that draws each one of us to repentance, to abundant life. He broke my heart even further.
God taught me his kindness goes so far beyond my own kindness, beyond what I could imagine.
He wants us to extend the kindness we have received from him to our brothers and sisters trapped by the lies of abortion.
Over this period of time the ministry of Abby Johnson, And Then There Were None, was founded and well established to help clinic workers out of the abortion industry. This is a huge miracle as the converted workers now have a place where people who understand can minister to their unique needs.
Back to the film, two years ago Stephen Kendrick (big time movie producer) spoke at the Life International banquet that I was attending. I got up the courage to ask for his help in finishing this film. (I was hoping he might just take it off my hands and make it awesome. A good, likely rich, big shot movie maker has got to have some pretty great connections right? At least he might help with the audio levels or music. I didn’t doubt that he had the heart.)
He was interested, even willing, but then at the end he told me God gave me the passion for this and I should do it myself. I was half expecting this answer, so it didn’t surprise me. Talk about a learning curve! Adobe Premiere Pro takes thousands of hours to master.
With exceeding joy, I am thankful to share that by God’s grace, the film is complete.
I pray that this film goes forth to usher in an outpouring of healing to those hurting after abortion. I pray it inspires those of us in the fight for life to reach out with renewed passion and grace to those who have picked up the instruments of death, imploring them to turn from death and receive God’s love that sustains life.
There is no production company or marketing campaign apart from you and I. The whole film was produced with a couple hundred dollars, a few willing hearts, hands, voices and most importantly love and prayer.
If you believe in the value of this message and the film, please share it!
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Join me in prayer for the conversion of all abortion doctors, in memory of the one I set out to reach for life. Please pray for the conversion of every abortion worker.
If you are called to reach out at the sidewalk, please seek out the guidance of those who walk in kindness towards the broken, and have experience serving those from the sidewalks outside abortion and abortion referral facilities, as the hands and feet of Christ. You can find training through Sidewalk Advocates for Life.
Love doesn’t consider any life a lost cause.
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted, saving those who are crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18
Thank you for considering all these things.
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